I often sit here in front of my laptop waiting for something to happen, someone to talk to me. Most of the times nothing happens cause no one bothers and no one cares. I'm always left alone here, I feel like a loser. Sometimes, I feel like I don't have true friends. Actually, I feel that most of the times. Friends, everyone has, but it is so hard to find someone who will know when you are in need, and someone I won't get sick and piss off. I hate my temper, I hate my attitude, but I don't hate my life yet to end it so I can only live on to bear the misery. I am like this lost sailor in the middle of a stormy sea, unable to steer myself towards any direction and all I can do is hope and pray for a lighthouse to appear in the distance.